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Since April when we first met, the first impression of you towards me, I'm a person that panics a lot. My first impression of you, outgoing and rowdy, never thought we will be what we are now, still going on, and now not just friends, but something closer.
There are quarrels like always, but no matter what, they are solved just in less than 24 hours of waking time, both sides having their negative moods dispersed. When meeting up with each other after the quarrel, the feeling, its not irritating, but happy instead, and smiling when we saw each other's face.
Right from the beginning, asked for your name, and you started to play around with me, the time when I think we could never be at least friends, but the trigger is when you asked me to teach you about the notes, and came to my class that first time. Honestly, irritation is there, but as a few days passed, not sure what it is, maybe chemistry? let us started the beginning of a new friendship, talk and joke, mostly you are the one who did that, I'm still serious and quiet as before. Meeting daily in school, eating and after lessons, with a lot of topics that I've never realized before that came out of the blue, through your influence I grew to talk and joke as well, those who seen me before and now, they can at least see a difference in how I chat with them, from my heart, greatest gratitude to you.
A few months passed, we never seem to run out of topics, and we looked forward to meeting up and chats.
Later on, problems are shared, the time when you are a close friend from my heart, I feel safe when I shared the problems I had before to you, its like trust, the feeling that you will help keep them for me, and you did. Never once had you told, only when you discussed it with my another close friend, since she knows about it too, and I'm okay with it.
A simple yet complicated girl, thats what the other close friend said, but yet you took the effort to understand, a lot in my view, even though you said its just basic stuff. The day I realized it is the day I change my thinking of you.
One day decided to bring you to that place, my first time being there, and so is yours. Overall we like it, rarely people knew about the place, as through this whole life, its the first time I heard from a friend telling me that the place gives a peaceful and silent feeling, not the awkward silence, but when thoughts are being spilled out, not when you are alone, but instead, with someone who is close to you.
Brought you there, and told you about my thinkings, my feelings, the reasons. I hope of something more, but I know it's wrong, and I can't accept it when the other told me about it. You told me your happy about me confessing, but something is just blocking that little gap, its 'wrong'. I hate it from the bottom of my heart, but how I wish there will be something more than just what we are. To others, its wrong. To me, feelings are greater than anything else, and thats how my feeling towards you are.
Went to that place again, was gonna show you how I felt towards you, but the atmosphere is spoilt in my view because I kept coughing non stop, and through the coughing I can't think out my thoughts properly. You wondered, ask me about why not showing during a part while we are there, the silence is deafening. You are eating, and all I could do is just smile while your eating, not sure what to talk or do. At least we went back like always when we started to play around like two mad kids.
Time passed so fast, how I wish I could make the time go slower when we meet up. A few more months, and the day will come when I'll stop seeing you while I'm still schooling. I dread the countdown to that day, the feeling that we may lose contact after you left.
Yes I think too much frequently, but it depends on situations, people don't know how troubled I am, all in their minds, are that I'm just slacking or dazing about. Some said its making me think of positive to negative, I admit I do that, but theres a reason for it, just that I'm not sure what.
People who leaves a deep impression onto me, I can count in just one hand, and its lesser than that. And yes, your one of that few, the one that leaves the most deep impression onto me. Not sure why, but its there.
Wednesday: a special day and fun-filled. I appreciate for the things that you have done, what you have helped and advise, and also to help me understand more about me in ways. You will say that you didn't do anything, but in my heart, you did greatly. Thank you, and forever will.

P.s. don't wish anyone to ask me questions or tag me about this, this is just something which I just want to blog about. Thanks for reading though, I appreciate it:)