Cheese! nomnomnom!

Right from the beginning, can sense that something is wrong, very wrong indeed, can't put my finger to what it is, and before I realized it, I did something more idiotic, and its too late to stop or change it.
Angry? Disappointed? A shock when you didn't tell me about it. Its so sudden, the second I saw, its the second which I got a mixed of emotions. I know how you felt when I just walk away, but I can't make myself just to stand there and opening my mouth to say out any words. Heard your exasperation, but that didn't stop my tracks, something within me drives me to walk away from you, still acting in the same manner till I left the school.
Waving a bye with my back facing towards you, don't want you to know how I felt. At that point of time, you must be fired up since I can't even chat well with another. Next time can't meet up with another, or tense atmosphere is all it gets, thats what you have said. Do you know the reasons I'm in that manner? You might know part of it, how about the other part? I know.. If I didn't do what I have done just now, none of this would have happened.
Kept thinking about you the moment I left, even now. Messaged you, and in my view, the tones, they are either serious or cold, and you rarely use them on me unless you are moody over stuffs etc. Saddens me it did. Seems that there really is a strain inbetween us, the gap, in my view, is getting bigger, and I don't wish for that to happen at all, but because of me, thats what its getting to soon. I wish that I can just nailed up my emotions and cover them with bricks, then I won't be in this condition, which is getting worse everytime I saw the other.
Last message stating that we chat online, which is almost a couple of hours, but I still didn't see you online at all. Are you avoiding me? Or are you just busy? Will your last message be that you won't be able to go online and had to go to sleep? If that happens I don't know how I will feel.
Sad? Disappointed? It's something negative, that I will be sure of it.
No more mood to blog, hope that things will be solved tmw or when your online, take care till then.