Cheese! nomnomnom!

Things were going quite well in the beginning, till 2nd break.
At first we can chat so well, but on the way to buying food, something is missing.
She's so silent, when I tried my best just to talk abit, but I know, I've totally asked the wrong questions.
'Are you okay?'"huh ya, why?'
It's like, wrong, its wrong, if your okay, then why are you silent?
'Theres nothing else to talk about'
Nothing else to talk about? Or did something happen? Is it finally here? The strains?
I know I lost my confidence since that day when you say no one understands you, till now I still remember it. I know I'm sensitive, and just that sentence really breaks me down. I begin to have doubts about how much I understand, not just you, but about me. I don't have that much motivation anymore. Why am I even doing this in the beginning?
The answer? Your the first one I care so much about, I will do anything, just anything to see you happy. The thing is, I don't know where to start, your the first that I'm most concerned, worried about. Am I going overboard..? Should I just restrain myself afterall? Has my constant questionings got into your nerves?
The thing is..
Do you wish to rest without me around for some time..?
Something is not right today, I really am at a loss for words, mostly I'm not the one starting conversations, I don't even know how to. Most of the time its you, and thats what keeps the conversation going the whole day. When your silent, its like, the story has ended, it can't start without you to keep the ball rolling. If I did start a conversation, its like just a small subtopic of that book, the main is missing. Where is it? What happened to it? Is that small subtopic even that important in the main's view?
Lost..
Empty..
Sad..
A whole bunch of negativeness are about me, can you feel it..?
I know you hate me being negative and stuff, but for this, I can't not feel or think that way.
Yes I know I get agitated easily this few days, I get too sensitive over stuff. Do you know why?
My expectations, I don't know, I think it went up a notch, like just even talking, sometimes, or nowadays, most of the time, when you say something, I know I'm like deaf the first time, when I ask you to repeat, you are like, 'nvm, suan le, say once can le' or you just give me a smile and thats it. Sometimes its important, like something that makes you angry etc, I sensed it, asked, and the reply I got is vague answers.
I got influenced by the way you answered, sometimes, you can realized, when you ask me whether I'm alright, the answers I gave is similar to yours, I didn't realized it till when I thought about what I felt then and when I rethink about just that lil conversation we had. I'm acting abit more like you did, and.. the way I answer you, how do you feel? Is it like, suan liaoz, angry angry lor, dont answer dont answer lor, heck care about it?
I don't wish to think about the negative parts, but today, it just makes me remember.
Your the special one in my eyes, you know that ya? I won't ask you the questions that I've asked if your just someone else, I won't even care about you, or even felt so much when something happened.
My mood today: damn frustrating, down, sad, everything. When I saw your msn nick and pm, it just really make me emotional. Okay I'm a emotional person, so what? The one that makes my heart sink will be the last word in your pm. Supplies..? Your going back to fishing again? Health is important, it really hurts me if anything happens to you. I know about my condition, but I just can't bear to use your money, and you even told about the fee today in canteen, 1000+? I really got stunned.
Now, seeing your nick on my desktop, the icons really distracts me, and whenever I saw it, I just got even sadder. Didn't talk to you since after 2nd break, its 4 now, and your having ut later, should I just go? Or wait for you? I know you won't see this post till after your ut is over, or when you are planning to read it, which I don't know how long is that. But I know, I will wait for you, no matter whether you want me to or not. Take care and jia you for your ut ya. All I wish, is everything to be fine like before, the times we have been together, how about you? All I want, is your views, your views about all this, beginning and now. But mostly now, dont know what my reaction will be though.

When your not around me, I wonder about you.
The way things are now, it makes me not just wonder about you, but about us..