Cheese! nomnomnom!

Yep, life has its ups and downs, that how its happening at the moment.
Ups and downs at the right and wrong time, do I understand? Maybe not the time yet, but I'm gonna meet the expectations, whether it's possible or no.
Now its the week'?' where things are not going smoothly, what people will say, not constant.
As I have not control myself of what I'm starting to become a few days ago, it kinda makes everyone unhappy, especially to that special someone. That, I sincerely and deeply apologize from my heart. Yes I should not think about it, but I know, I will keep on thinking till things are cleared up, then I will rest at ease.
Tomorrow, or 8 more hours, everything will go smoothly, no matter how bad it is.
Can see I don't want to use hope, because at least, no matter what happens, it will go smoothly, as long as I am my old self again, but then yet again, not that old.
Saw those msgs, I smiled at them, everything will be fine, gotta conquer it.
As long as the special someone is happy, so am I.
Challenges for me to go back to my old self, begins now.
Never feel helpless, as for me, help is being done, and its alot, that I really appreciate and much grateful. Now's my turn, questions are always in my mind, but yep, gotta turn them down till that most important question is being found.
Positive mind thinking, I will do it, and thats what counts.
I have to throw that -failure- part away, to a -I can do it-.
Will I be given this chance to prove it? But yep, I will try my utmost.

Before I went to sleep, a song lyrics dedicated to the special someone:
You know the world can see us
In a way that's different from who we are
Creating space between us
Till we're separate hearts
But your faith gives me strength
Strength to believe

For me, the last two sentences matters most, your faith do give me strength to believe:)
Take care peeps, and to special someone, I want to take off your burden, I felt it deeply this evening, and truthfully, like what you always said to yourself, I felt helpless. To throw that thinking aside, yes, have to open that last fragment of my shell, I know I can.