Cheese! nomnomnom!

Till school starts! gg, how I wish, like most people, how hols could be longer.
Seriously, I have like, no life. Since hols, work work, since last 2 weeks, projects from mon to thurs, fri and sat work, sun off day. Practically, its like school has already been started, except that i got a day off instead of 2.
Oh well, enjoy while it lasts ya? Just that I couldn't bear to not to meet a certain someone only on certain days.

So what had my team done for fyp?
Practical all the way, at first went to sheng siong bought ingredients that we needed, and bought some other stuffs for our use- fortunately the PIs' didn't check the receipt carefully:P
Tried to do crepes using just cooked rice, soaked rice and soya beans. Turns out to look like macdonald's hotcake as days pass amusing. But seriously, doing the same old thing almost everyday, even with a different variety of ingredients, sure can make one get bored and tired of eating them, or should I say, eat until scared=.=;
I began to slack more and more as practical days passed, at first I'm so enthu into making a crepe, but making the same old same old just makes me go 'blahh'.

School starting next mon, class? W56M, at least able to see some old faces from the past 2 semesters:) But omg? Can I say how much I hate biomaterials? Didn't realize I actually chose that module zzz, hope all ends wellx.x
And yea, like again, schools starting, lesser time to meet D le, I still can't try to get used to it!-man what a kid!- Gonna spend the daysss schooling while D spend the dayss working plus etc, yea, can't bear not to meet for just 2 days amusing=.=

First time, I got 500+++ bucks for my pay!! but to think about this month where I had to work that lil and maybe get a pay around 100-200+? My mood just fall splat to the groundx.x To think I had to earn this amount of money to survive each month, without my parents help through allowance or money for transportation etc. All this? I forked the money out myself. Come on??? I'm still a student! not a full timer! why the hell do I have to suffer and work part time and can't even save what lil I've got since I have to give my OWNSELF allowance and transportation? and best of all had to give at least 50 bucks to my mum including when I borrowed her money. Imagine if my normal salary is like, 250 bucks, 50 bucks to mum including maybe 10-20 bucks, 180bucks left. I don't use concession or what that is, had to take bus, mrt etc, from wdlds to cityhall, around 1.65 bucks? there and back 2++ bucks, and I only give a top up of 10 bucks. Just transport alone kills me. Not to say allowance everyday. I need lunch I need dinner I'm still bloody growing. Then I think, what's the use of me working IF I can't even save a single buck each month? and have to ask my mum for money, which turns out to be a I.O.U. Yea, if I don't work I still won't have allowance. Damn pathetic. First time I got 500+++ bucks, I can't bear to pass any money to my mum, though I owe her 10 bucks for transportation.

Throwing away all stupid thoughts above, had a damn full full meal last night hahaz. Had dinner at sakae sushi with someone, who in turn, pianjia me cos last time suppose to meet but got cancelled last minutex.x Sashimi buffet, thats what the waitress or someone said, well, I don't know what that is, but when I see the price I really dont wish that someone pianja amusing. Though to you all maybe 20++ bucks per person is alright, but not for me, I prefer eat 5bucks stuff>.>;
Had that buffet at 630, let someone ordered since pianja ma, don't know why, I kept laughing non stop on what is ordered. And stop when I saw what is being given=.=; Yes, I believed I ate a 2 person's meal, never once I got so stuffed that when I walk pass the pasa malam I don't even feel a tinge of hunger with all those yumyum smells! All in my mind was 'no more food please;.;'.
Had ice cream later, a double -boom- to my tummy, which already felt like 2 months old at the moment. Through that night, I had one thing to say, DIET PLEASE! but well, if I reach 50kg through last night really had to thank someone hahaz:P 50kg= my aim.

Started playing DA again, and finally registered! Tried to powerhunt in mines and canals, but so far, 3 days ab 10, and still along way to ab 11, that is so not called powerhunt, its too damn slow:/ damn projects and work:/ Met afew new sg people there, able to chat with some well, while the others just gradually lost contactx.x So far talk quite alot will be candy, zwuji, crim, sasuke, rest are foreigners like halley, risinggundam etc. But overall, had fun in game, the feeling.. its like back when I'm in sec school trying to play game avoid stress from irl hahaz.

Need advice badly, how do people understand one another??? How do I comfort people?? All this seriously, I don't know, I tried to learn, I failed, I need guidance asap, or else I can feel a crack in the sky which can't be stitched up no matter how hard I tried. To me its close or already cracking up abit, I don't wanna that! I need to learn howwwwwwww. I need to learn how to catch hints that isn't that noticeable!

Overall, -PLEASE HELP VICTIM;.;-

Last thing is..
How I wish I can overcome jealousy. It happens very often recently. Too often until I flare up and raise my voice to D today about how much I hate this person, and just literally walk away. My bad, I know, was laughing and jking a sec before, and my face just turn black the next just D mention the person's name. Sorry about this afternoon, couldn't kept myself in control, blahh, why should I be so sensitive to that person anyway.. There's always a reason though.. Comparing that person and me, I lack something important, which, I'm not gonna say. Hope things would get better, especially when school starts for me.

Could a love like this ever exist or last..?
No matter what, this is what that keeps me alive
Sense of hope, willingness to try
Jealousy, please, just a wish
Begone with the wind
or thunderstorms it shall be