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Just realize that most/ all of my posts are complains and etc=.=; Oh well, I'm slow, can't keep up with the others, and most of all, my mind is still in kiddyland.
ALL IM SAYING BELOW ARE MY VIEWS, MIGHT OFFEND SOME PEOPLE, MOSTLY THOSE WORKING IN CC. IF YOU REALLY WISH TO READ IT DONT BE AGAINST IT, AFTERALL, I WARN YOU, DONT WANT YOU GUYS ANGRY AT ME OR JUST TOTALLY GIVE UP ON ME.

My views on everything in work so far- I don't want flames, just concern okay, I know I ask for alot, maybe even too much.

Getting more and more sensitive to every single thing anyone said recently, or is that normal?
Not sure if I am able to cope up with working world most of all, heard about rumors behind my back etc, mostly all bad mouthing etc. Yea, in this working world, one has to treat everyone as his/her friends, no matter what they say behind your back, no matter what rank they are in.
What you heard about you kept quiet about it, just pretending that you know nothing will keep you safe. I've enter the working world for nearly 7 months, let's just say, I would already have been fired lesser than that. So what goes wrong? People kept saying, 'it's your attitude that makes the boss want to fire you'. I asked, 'Like what?'. Examples? alot.
In their view:
Supervisor plus boss plus higher ranks > you. What they say you do, no questions no shooting back etc. Even if they give you more work than others you still have to smile and just do, no show temper whatsoever etc.
Don't ever separate your work with your collegues. Work together, don't think that the higher ranks treat you unfairly when they want you to do more.
Do things initiatively, don't -daydream-, or look as if you are -daydreaming-, when the moment boss or supervisor sees you that way, your up for a trouble.

Maybe I'm still don't understand how working world is like, thus when people say their views, I know, they are more experience than me, but on the spot, what my view is like:

Yea I know they are higher than me, and recently one who was also the same rank as me just rose up to be a supervisor. One day so weird, came telling me to do this and that, even when I'm busy cleaning up tables, one of them is quite simple, to print the bill and send it. Yep, was gonna do that after I brought the tray to the kitchen. But then, when I was in the midst of printing the bill, a table behind me ask for orders. I'm the nearest, so its like, should take the order ya, instead of ignoring. So since I'm inbetween the computer and the table, thought I'll take the orders first and send the bill later. Then supervisor saw that I haven send the bill yet, face expression? Abit pissed of, but kept on saying,'Ya I do I do' in impatient way, when I told him why I didn't send the bill.
Another time is when there are collegues nearby the entrance, while I'm taking care of the inside, customers just arrived, and decided to take a seat outdoors. And of all people, instead of asking the colleagues who were just beside him and nearest to the customers, he called out to me and told me to send the menus to them. So, of cos the question in my mind is, why me and not them? Bam, shouldn't have ask. His face went black again.

2nd, separate my work with collegues? Can say, I never once thought of that. Whenever closing time, when I see one of my collegues chaining one row of tables and chairs, yep I offered to help. Sanitizing sweeping I'm alright with it, just wanted to try and end closing earlier, since mopping had to come next. Most of the times bartender Gita will tell me to bring containers, plates after another to the kitchen, I'm willing to help, no questions needed.
In my mentality, or maybe, my slow thinking, if they all just started with, 'can you..? may you...?' I'm glad to offer. But imagine, last night was done sweeping, checking floor? Mopping is finishing, and nothing more. Thus went to change clothings, in my mind knowing, been ask to help in the bar to bring stuff to kitchen before, same applies to now. Thus brought my bag etc to one of the tables, preparing to check if bar needs anything a member on the floor can help. But then, on the moment of just putting down my bag? Can hear exclamation from the supervisor-again. 'Why are you the first to change your clothes when the others haven finish their work????? Can't you see that one of them is still topping up sugar bowl??'. First thing sid(supervisor name), before I changed, I checked the floor, no one top up sugar bowls or anything, and seldom I saw collegues topping up sugar bowls. I'm now working only once 1 week, how would I know what has changed and what has not? It is till after I changed, then I saw, but shes halfway done, yea cos you exclaimed etc, I shoot him back, 'I know I've changed, but I can still help. How about fadli(collegue)? He's like, sleeping on the sofa? Why didn't you ask him to help?'- In my mind I'm like, his the first to sleep when people are still working, and you didn't ask him but me.- His reply?' Cos he mop the floor just now'. Okay that's lame. I shoot back again,' I'm sweeping just now, isn't it the same?' Then his face? priceless black, and he go called fadli to help, which a minute or 2 later, I actually saw fadli go outside to smoke. Amusing. For me? since his exclamation, I went to arrange the chairs and check for sugar bowls. Can say I blew up, blast off my hp music, and forgot all about wanting to help the bar.
The thing is, before I go blast that music- I know I'm wrong to do that-, not saying about ranks, I really want to know who is wrong here, all this time, its me? Yea later on, I heard from M that cos fadli didn't sleep well the other night, thats why he went to sleep. The thing is, I didn't know that till when I've reached home. And guess what? Got me thinking again. Since he started same time working with me, which is at 6pm, he didnt sleep the other night, how about in the morning? No reasons why he didn't sleep when he knows that there is work at 6pm?

Last is to be initiative. Yes I did do initiate things at times, topping up waters, clear glasses, plates etc. But so suay, boss and supervisor didn't see that at all. When things are done, I went back to that computer station there checking around for things to do, nada. So I just walk about, or stand there to see whether any customers need help etc. To the boss and supervisor, they happened to look at me when I'm doing -nothing-, in their minds? slacking. They thought I didn't do anything at all. Am I being blacklisted in that workplace or something? Almost everyone in CC loves to gain up on me, rumors, the teases, bullying. They know about how I blow at stuff. Do they really want to make me keep on blowing everytime I work till I got fired? I have no idea at all. If they really don't like me that much, it's best that I leave, just to let them have peace, and me having the peace of no more bullying and teases.

Tell me, like I've said in the very beginning, one has to treat anybody as friends no matter what. But, how.. how am I gonna treat them even as just friends, with what they do etc? Do they even treat me as a friend? Or just something to entertain them? Are my views all wrong? or partly correct? Seriously, I don't know, if this goes on I really don't know what I will do, it gets me more and more sensitive to just words, any words. Emotional? I don't want that okay.