Cheese! nomnomnom!

RIP ah gong.. your sun nu bu siao shun..
The bad feeling came true..
A phone call from mum when M arrive..
Ah gong too sick.. had a fit of coughings..
Not sure what happen.. all I know is that he's gone forever..

After that phone call.. I don't know whether I should act normal or just burst down in a fit of crying..
Tian Rong and M heard I said about ah gong 'qu shi' in the phone..
After the call.. I just smile sadly at them, and just kept avoiding, and trying my best to be happy in front of them.. all the while thinking, I want you guys not to ask about what happen, and don't do anything that can really make me break down..

But like always, something did happen that make me nearly break down lol..
M went to buy some smoothie.. that bloody guy accidentally add wrong ingredient inside the blender.. and want M to change to that flavour instead.. M want what she ordered at the beginning, the guy kept wanting her to stick with what he added.. gave some bloody excuse saying that yoghurt expensive and all.. and showing attitude to M.. In the end he threw the ingredients into the sink, and kept saying, wasting ex stuff..
F la dude.. your the one at fault add wrong ingredient.. and customer say she want that flavour you kept demanding for what you added.. wasteful is it.. no one ask you to throw.. you can eat it for all we care..

Was looking at M face, showing concern and wonder how she is feeling now..
and got a bloody 'what the fuck? stop looking at me.'
I guess I can't do anything even looking at her while trying to be quiet huh..
After the drink, she said about suing the guy.. and she said I'm like a jiko pei kept looking at her.. oh thats an example.. First.. I'm a girl.. what for I look at her like a jiko pei.. and I only look at her face to see what signs shes giving off..angry sad etc..

Oh yea.. I said I hate about people answering formal tone and all.. she did that.. and intending to go towards MRT station when she told my game friend and his friend that she will meet them later.. And that time.. I don't know whether I should be angry or burst to tears.. I'm just stuck in inbetween.. And I remember cookie has been at home since when I left.. no one home at all.. And I was intending to buy a mp3 after she bought her smoothie.. But that is thrown aside when she started to say those to me..
What the fuck have I done???????
I know Marilyn is Marilyn, Genevieve is Genevieve, but does it matter when I am already down about what happen to my grandpa, and just need some concern from you??
I tried to stay cheerful and be concern about you when something happened in my family.. Why am I receiving all these in return???

I already can't focus on my thoughts after that phone call.. and not intending or purposely to forget stuff and said some wrong stuff.. Can't you at least for today just overlook these??
I don't want to go home straight after that call cos Tian Rong and Terence are still there.. It's rare to meet them.. And wanted to go home after Tian Rong went home..

What's past is past.. Alone at home with cookie.. At least hes alright.. But I'm so not.. All I wanted is care and concern.. especially from M, I cherished you damn much as a bud and big sis.. Nada, none of those.. when I wanted you to at least talk something when the train comes and before you left..

I'm not fated am I?