Cheese! nomnomnom!

No matter what I done, what I did, I don't find any appreciations. And I don't mind it.
Cos its you.
After this morning and afternoon. Without even saying a bye to me -or- looking at me etc, you just left.
Strangers eh? Or enemies?
Knowing your reply will be 'if thats what you think, so be it'.
Of cos, the other peeps whom I know won't think of you as how I think you are, cos you said before, you only shown your true feelings to me, and not to them.
So I tell them now, how they think of you as a strong, determined fella, quiet but able to joke at times, and rarely see you angry, how you treated and talk to me is total opposite of what they know about you.
Yea true feelings, I'm glad that your showing your true feelings to me, but sometimes when someone doesn't talk back when you nag at them and saying he or she is foolish and saying unreasonable excuses, do you know the reason why he or she didn't talk back?
To show your true feelings is one, to say that the person is foolish and saying unreasonable excuses is another. And the person always got -scolded-<- dont know exact word, whenever he or she is doing something, or even saying out something. Am I just a dummy to vent all your anger towards me? A dummy that shouldn't talk, shouldn't care, shouldn't even do anything? So that there'll be peace for you?

Saying or doing nothing seems to make me unhurt in a way.

I did say I'm not giving up, but I don't find reason to leave my pride in the drain. I don't mind it that much when you talk to me in that raised tone, sarcastic and anger at times, but then, do you mind when I talk to you back in the same way when I'm angry?
Of cos, you will reply 'Are you taking revenge on how I talk to you? Your doing it back to me?'
No, we are humans with emotions afterall, how am I taking revenge to you, when its a normal reaction when humans are angry, they talk in that tone?
You minded it so much, and a small stuff, just me venting, becomes a heated argument.
You changed, how I have put up with it, hoping that I can even see a trace of you back, back when how we are best friends aka sisters.
I don't see it anymore.

The thread is breaking.

You don't cherish this as much as I do, or you will do something about it.
I've been trying to keep that thread intact for months, but you seem to be preventing me from doing that.

I'm not going to do it anymore, since I don't see you doing the effort of trying to keep it intact. And of cos, I believed your not going to keep it intact as well. If you did, I'll be there to see it.

'We are at a stage where we couldn't even communicate anymore.'

I have enough of this crap. What I did so far just hurts me, lose my pride and makes me moody, making everyone around me worried and concern about me, like Rie aka Halley my kapatid, Vivian my DA friend, and Mei Ling my CO junior.

Yea, though I'm not giving up of this friendship which is already broken mode, I'm letting go of the past. Love to have you as a friend from now onwards, only if you let it, I'm anything.

Time for me to stand up, believing in myself, and be who I am before. Thanks to peeps who have been there for me at times.

Time for me to let go and move on.

At the same time, I wish for you to be back to your cheerful and old self like before.
Not cos of me, but for the people around you.