Cheese! nomnomnom!

Will there ever be a time, especially this few nights, for my tears to stop flowing out of my eyes?
Why do tears flow out of my eyes, you ask.
Its either I'm touched, or I'm really hurt.
Sometimes, even a sentence, can hurt one so much that everything is just turns so, sour, and the sourness turned into pain, a pain that stabs straight into your very heart.
For this few nights, thats how I felt.
Cos I can't seem to let go at all no matter how much I want to lie to myself that I can.
Apparently, I fall more and more deeper, as if a dark hole has suck you right into it, preventing you to get out forever.
I don't wish to hurt anyone, all this time I cared for people more than myself.
But this few days and nights, I cared for myself too much, but I won't forget you two.
No matter how painful that feeling is, I won't stop caring, cos how can I, when one meant so much to me, until one has become a part of my life..?
With the videos and all, within, thats what I also hope for.
It takes two hands to clap, but now, I'm clapping with one hand, a hand, and a table. And the table has no feelings. I can't sense whether theres anything beyond the table. Is it hollow? or theres something just behind it?
I want to know, I want to know the truth behind the table, for the months, and the weeks.
And knowing the truth last night, it really blows me away.
It leads me wanting to care much more than before.
Why, you ask?
Cos I don't want to lose it again, I've lost it once, I really don't wish to lose it twice.