Cheese! nomnomnom!

For the very first time, I manage to make all of those close to me to be zzzz at me.
How many are close to me?
Lessee, less than the total number of fingers on my left hand.
Yea, morning afternoon night. Zzzzz.

Just want to say, I don't call anyone 'bestie' for no reason. I never say I 'wanted' to break the friendship. I said, I thought -you- want to break the friendship, thats why my replies are that = z.
You tell me to go back, and she still need me. Like I said, she needs you more than me. I need you more than her. Cos, like I said again in sms, your the motivator. If the motivator sarcastic laugh(I did say before I hate sarcastic words/laugh) when I broke down and all, will I still dare to go back? I'm scared to go back, not knowing what else you might do next. But if I go or not, theres still someone better than me there.
It's cos of you, thats one of the main reason why I go.
If you really want break this friendship, I have no comments. You have the freedom to decide.
Just to let you know yet again, I don't call anyone 'bestie' for no reason, and I'm not the kind that breaks up friendship, only the other party does that, if you still remember.
Seriously not sure whether I want to go back or not, yes I'm so interested in the stuff, but the 2nd factor which I said to you last week or so(if you still remember) is missing from me. About, people only go, when friends go. Again, your the motivator, its like, if you go, I go, but earlier, with the sarcastic LOL, haha! etc when I find theres nothing funny, I felt damn looked down.
Disappointed assumption? It's the -first time- I come across someone whom I called bestie to say all those to me. How can I not assume? oh wait. assume is like ass out of you and me. How can I not -think- that your not breaking up?

Really don't know whether I want to go tmw. If you ever saw this post tmw morning, either your mad or laugh at it, well, I gave up. I should try to be more numb to anything anyone say. I need a backbone, cos it appears I don't have that to support me.
If you even blog about the same thing, well, its your freedom, afterall its your blog.
I really need a reason to go back now.
But then, is there any reason or reasons?
I wonder..