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Bad post today. Don't read unless you want kpo.

Had a horrible nightmare last night, resulting in me not going to work. Been too tired, mentally and physically.
Cooldown period kay. Guess 2 days ain't enough for you, or you just don't realise thats cooldown period.
You can talk as if nothing happen last night, but I'm being affected by it. Alot.
Its not the harsh words. It's the -actions- that came right after. It's the threatenings and orders that came right after. Where's the apology when I don't see a single -sorry-?
All these happen between 1am to 2+am. My sleep poof straight after all this. Poof so much I didn't go for work.
It's not about me not forgiving you. Its about me last night saying the same thing you said today, and I got rejected on the spot and got the actions received. So, why did I got rejected when today you said the exact same thing which I said last night?
What you sms today doesn't mean that nothing has happen last night.
I will repeat, I'm being affected -alot-. Its between you and me, don't involve my family. True, I don't answer calls in the -middle of the night-. I don't mind smsing, but not calls. But over 30 spams? Ergh.

Another thing.
Just received a call. I was shocked. I was speechless. And yes, I teared. The cause is as if something in my heart trigger when I heard the news.

You will be fine.. you hear? Believe in yourself, believe that it will be gone.. you will be fine before 2 months are up. You will be able to pass through operation successfully.. Don't keep thinking negatively.. Look up and no matter what, stay cheerful, think happy stuff.. I'm there for you when you need me:)
But no matter what, stay strong wil, don't give up! You can pull through this!

I thought alot of things.. why is everything just so..confusing? Even earlier through the phone call.. Can anyone assure me..? Clear my doubts..?
Mind was thinking of just one thing before, now I'm thinking another thing..
Nvm, I'm thinking lots of things. Ergh.