Cheese! nomnomnom!

Back again! I'm sick -again- too:(
Sore throat followed by dry coughing with a vomiting feel.

Don't have the mood to post much since after work.
Didn't expect stuff to happen.
Worst case scenario is caught red handed.
With no explanations, I went bonkers and shoot with -the- 'mum'. A scary mum.
Of all days, its today. I'm very sorry, to you.
First time this happens, I'm scared of myself.
I hope its the last time to see this side of me.
Chaotic side. Makes me think of the words thats being continuously said the past few days ago, 'welcome to hell'. Quite overboard eh? But thats really what happen to me.

Totally regretted. Cried. Feeling so bad about it. I wonder how people will feel if they saw this chaotic side of me. Cmi.
To feel those cmi trembles all over me, that only folding my arms across my chest helps little. With 'mum' seeing my trembles from a metre away, and demanded me to unfold my arms cos its 'rude', helps lesser.
Looking up at my hands, seeing them trembling oh-so-clearly. Images flashed across my mind, repeating over and over again, about that incident. Found myself smiling bitterly with my eyes fixed on a random spot in the neighbourhood, where I'm mostly alone in a secluded area.

No matter what, whats done is done. All I can do is apologise, and hope for forgiveness. Even if I'm given bits of saliver over my face and arms, with her sarcastic patting on my back and smiling oh-so-lol at me, afterthat a fake begging to me with more splatters of saliver towards me. Sarcasm ttm.

Didn't know a quarrel can lead to such drastic consequences. Didn't know a simple threat from her, can make me go haywire. Gen is going crazy.

Tmw's a better day? Sigh. Your gonna be gone from sg in 4 hours time, and I'm still awake when my sickness came back to visit me this morning.

Looking at the lil goldfishes you gave me today over my laptop, with your watch safely beside my laptop. Re-reading at the card you wrote to me. All those gifts in less than half an hour before the incident happen.

I will take care of the watch, listen to its tickings whenever I shake it, like heartbeats. Looking at the dozen goldfishes, where there are 3 main bigger ones: you, me, and fate.

I remembered one of the lil poem/rhyme which I wrote in the card to you 5 days ago, about my gift towards you.
Really hope that it'll come true. Like what you say, it'll be near where my heart is. Will be wearing that every single day hopefully, awaiting for your return.

To my dearest, have a safe trip, have fun with your buddy, good luck for studies, and hope it'll be a fruitful experience with the exploring after that:)
You'll been missed, terribly, by me, in afew hours time.

Je t'aime